d no Confused_Specialist no warts? but cervical

Hi

So I have been dealing with the possibility of genital warts for 7 months. The first doctor said the small bump I found was just inflamed pore then it got bigger and I went to a walk in clinic which told me I did, then I got a second opinion that wasn't sure. Oh and my pap at the start of all this came back normal. Then I froze off the small bump just in case. I was so paranoid I was checking myself everyday. I found other small bumps kinda looked like pimples so got my doc to freeze them. Then got the HPV test (which wasn't specific just general, very disappointing) saying I did have HPV. I was a mess. I went to a specialist at the Hospital twice he didn't find anything when checking with the small camera(colospopy). Then went to another specialist a month or so later that also checked with the camera (colospopy)and he found cervical dispasia. He took a sample and I have low to high grade and am going for a LEEP. This all took a big strain on my relationship and my boyfriend broke up with me (we were fighting a lot). I have now found out that he was cheating on me .... The problem is we were on a break while I was away at one point and I slept with someone else so now I don't know if he did this to me or I got it from the other person. I guess it doesn't matter in the end.

But I am here completely freaked out. Not sure when a spot is a wart or not, and facing this horrible procedure all alone.

I feel so sad, I have anxiety attacks and feel like I will never find anyone again...let alone trust them.